Wishful Thinking

*Sigh* It's been a while since I felt this weird feeling again. These are the reasons why I dont want to fall in love. I tend to become very sentimental every night. It's really weird but at the same time one of the worst feeling ever.
They say that falling in love with a friend is the best thing, but it's the most painful at the same time. We give up everything that we had with that person, hoping to let them feel the same as we do for them. I dont know, I think I'm not making any sense at all. I just cant gather all of my thoughts right now. There's plenty of things running in my mind right now. I cant find the right words to say in order to express what I'm feeling right now.
I'm a big fan of the saying "never give up, never surrender", but as time goes by I think it's all bullshit. Is it all worth it though you feel wasted and hurt inside? I'm already getting used with the pain and agony that I'm feeling right now. It's funny because I went to church today, the priest just mentioned on his homily that life is a constant struggle. It's like answering a question that I never asked. Wow! Well thats coincidence for you people. But I still have a few questions in my mind. I just wanna know if dreams do come true and I wanna know if I should still believe in destiny. I know destiny is not a matter of chance but of choice. What if we made a wrong choice? Is my destiny already gone or It's just the way things should go?
Hai. Now I do believe that love is much stranger than fiction.